July 2009

I found out about a month ago that my heart chakra was blocked. I don’t know the details about all of this, because I am pretty new to this type of stuff – but it does interest me.

I went to a store a couple weeks ago and picked up a couple pieces of rose quartz. One is a pendant that I wear on a necklace and another is a little stone. I wear the necklace a couple of times a week. When I go to bed at night, I usually leave some time to hold the stone or put the stone on my chest. I usually find that a lot of pain and hurt from the past is becoming resurfaced. Sometimes I can get emotional. I then put the stone down. I am finding it difficult, because all these bad memories are coming up again, that I forgot about. I might be thinking too much into it, but it kind of bothers me. I am trying to move on from the past, but it seems like everything is coming up again. Is this normal? I also find when I sleep with a rose quartz in my room, I am very restelss and can’t sleep well.

Journaling to get feelings into a tangible form is good, but something you can also do is talk yourself through issues. This was something I did for myself after my first husband walked out on me and my daughter. I would sit at night and talk out loud to myself about things as if I were talking to a therapist. It was amazing the range of emotions and issues that surfaced. I cried, I got angry, I laughed, but many things that I had shoved into the back of my memories came forward to be seen and felt. The rose quartz is a stone that has a soft universal love type energy. For the feelings that you are encountering, I might suggest peridot, which is a slow, steady healer. The heart chakra colors are both pink and green. I have always found that for "healing" in this chakra that green was a more effective color than pink. The pink acts more as a "maintainence" color for me. For sleep, the amethyst is a nice choice, vanilla scent can also be very soothing. As for everything from the past "coming up again", LET IT! Chances are you have merely stuffed it inside you and ignored it, thinking it has been dealt with. Yes, it is normal that issues will erupt in pain when this has happened. Working through this pain and letting it go instead of sucking it up and trying to convince yourself that it’s OK is the only way it will "go away". The memory becomes defused, so to speak, so that while you can recall the incidents that caused the pain, pain is no longer associated with it. I would continue with chakra balancing with someone well versed in the work. Your heart will likely not be the only chakra that needs attention as you heal from your past. Good luck in your healing.

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